In Gods Hands...

I feel so sick and worn out today. I can barely move. I have not been able to keep anything down today and all I tried was a chicken salad and a couple fries. That all came back up and I couldn't stop throwing up for ten minutes. I am so worn out! As a sip some gatorade my stomach is yelling at me. it hurts just as much as the migraine I have been sporting for two days now and the feeling of being so weak I can't get up just causes me more stress, because I have so much to do and so much that is asked of me.

While Rylan is trying to break out, *well it seems like it, he's moving and kicking up a storm in there* my asthma has been giving me some trouble today and I just feel like my body is on shut down mode. It seems to always be like this around the same time every month, but this is reminding me of the early days of my "all day sickness".

 It's like I push myself because I have too and then I just crumble... and have to relent to my body's exhaustion. I am praying that my work understands as I couldn't go in today. As my eyes force close all I can do is pray that God protects my job security, my health, my sons health, and has everything under control. I can only do so much.....my God can do so much more... I trust He has it all in His hands.

Third and hopefully last sonogram!

Our sonogram went well, we got more pictures but they aren't the best due to Rylan not EVER getting off of my placenta, I swear he's just laid on it my entire pregnancy like its his pillow, so since he wont move (lol) we haven't been able to get a great face picture since he's all scrunched up in there, snoozing away on his pillow
:-D

We will not know the results of the sonogram until probably our next baby appointment. It always takes the doctor four days to give us our results which would make us finding out on Saturday. But I assume the doctors office will wait until Monday, however that being the 4th of July puts us with not knowing until we go to our appointment on Tuesday the 5th :-(

We have a lot to do this weekend! We just set up our crib and with the help of my father in law last weekend Rylans room is cleared out and ready to be painted. Mimi and the girls will be over to help paint on Saturday! We actually decided to go with a brighter green since the initial paint color looked more blue than green. I CAN'T WAIT to get everything finished and decorated and put up pictures, time is of the essence!!!

Papa setting up the crib! Can't wait to get rid of those yellow walls!

Oscar is trying to help, he wants to paint!

~Rylan Paul @ 30 weeks 2 days~

 All Scrunched up on his pillow

Chubby cheeks! 

Rylans Feet :-D 
The technician had to take a picture because all he did was kick the monitor!

30 weeks and counting....

I have been so busy with all the changes in life this week, baby appointments, work, get togethers, holidays, birthdays, baby shower plans, and getting Rylans room together: I am exhausted! I didn't even know what week of pregnancy I was in until Facebook reminded me (haha)!

In my exhaustion I am still looking forward to the months to come. I CAN'T wait to hold my son! In letting go of our dear Pippa, our first pet for so many years, I can't imagine the love that will overflow when I am holding my child. I am so excited to watch him grow, (not so much the letting him go part, I don't know how parents do it!)

My baby appointment last week went well, Rylans heartbeat was in the 130s. She couldn't get a clear reading due to the fact little brownie kept kicking the heartbeat monitor! My weight is fluctuating once again and I lost two pounds instead of gaining the two and a half I needed. At my next appointment I am hoping to have gained that loss back at least. My blood work for the glucose testing to see if I have gestational diabetes came back negative and all my lab  work looked great, that's a blessing. Even though you know they have to do certain routine test for every pregnancy you always are on the edge thinking, "well just maybe it  wont be a good result". We are thanking God we can rejoice in those results while we wait for more results...My sonogram is in two days, I can't believe it went by so quickly, I can't wait to see Rylan again!!! My next baby appointment is then the following Tuesday! Time is flying by!!! We are trying to hold on!

Here are two little other reasons I have been so busy and tired these days, they are helping with my loss of Pippa and gripping my heart strings already!

My gorgeous, loving, Magnolia aka Maggie

 Mr. Oscar, my handsome cuddle bug

Saying Goodbye....

~Gone But Not Forgotten~

 The lid to her casket, that my wonderful father in law made for Pippa

Our letters we put with her in her casket.

Letting go our balloons with our messages...

...To heavens gates we let you go...

....No more pain.... 

....Renewed in Jesus arms...

~Forever in our hearts~

My beautiful Pippa.... you're so loved...

 ~Memories~

 She loved her Papa 

 A good sport when monkey put my glasses on her this past New Years Eve :-D

In her favorite spot on the couch, hanging out with T.D.

 In the worst of my "all day sickness" my Pippa was there for me!

Always giving kisses!

Changing Times

This week has been extremely difficult for me. I had to let go of my dearest friend and companion since highschool. 

Due to cancer, my beloved cat Pippa rest in Jesus arms today. I miss her so badly.... You know when you can avoid the hurt so well, that's when you know, the pain just goes so deep...

I have had so many memories with Pippa! She was one of a kind! I honestly think she thought she was human!  Her unconditional love, greetings by the door, cuddles, and kisses are so missed.

My family and I had a burial for her. I am going to blog a bunch of pictures throughout the years of times gone by and will then post pictures of letting her go....

June 20th, will forever be a day of sadness; I just have to remember that my great grandma and Jesus are playing with her now, hugging her, giving her kisses and whispering "I love you's" into her ear; And above all, I have to remember...

~Her pain is no longer...~

Just Salad

Ok.....I did get sick today. I am sad about that but I am very glad that it took almost two weeks until it happened. I have realized that a diet of Salad, unsweetened Ice tea, fruit, water, and sunflower seeds (sometimes a small fry with a southwestern chicken salad w/no dressing from McDonalds, YUMM) is all I can eat without getting sick. I still get nauseous after eating anything but NOT getting sick is all I want right now!

I can't wait for this Wednesday to hear Rylans heartbeat and the following Wednesday to see him when we get our sonogram :-D

Have to keep positive and focus on the little things....

Happy Birthday TO ME!

June 13th marked my 24th Birthday and the start of my seventh month of pregnancy! I would also like to add that for a week and a half I..... (drum roll please)........HAVE NOT GOTTEN SICK!!!! I KNOW!!! I am very VERY grateful for this! Those who know me know my obsession with the number seven, it's my lucky number :-D Sooo in my mind, I made it to the seventh month so I assume everything will be looking up from here! 


I had a GREAT birthday weekend filled with my sisters sleeping over, we ate a TON of great food! Put off fireworks and got burnt from being in the pool all day! I had a fantastic weekend celebration and a great welcoming of turning 24, entering my seventh month of pregnancy, and another little surprise happened on my birthday regarding my sister Victoria; lets just say....she is now OFFICIALLY a woman! :-D


I am so excited for what the next eleven and a half weeks brings us as we are getting to be in the "final countdown" of weeks until our little boy is to make his grand appearance. If my intuition is right and he is as stubborn as me, I still believe he will be early... 


At my last doctors appointment we scheduled my next two doctors appointments. The next one is on June 22nd at 1:30. Followed by our sonogram on the 29th the following week. And then my next baby appointment will be on July the 5th at 1:15. I am assuming they will just wait until that day to give us the news regarding my low lining placenta and possibly if nothing has changed or there isn't enough change for a natural delivery, a C-section could then be scheduled. It worked out that I will be seeing Dr. Ginter (the mean doctor from before, however I will have to note, she has become A LOT nicer; she still has her moments of deeming you completely incapable of having any kind of intelligence, yet a smile and small talk seem to be getting better for her, oh the silver lining, as little as it may be we'll take it! :-D) Since  Ginter has been the one ordering the paper work for my sonograms, I assume she will be the one to schedule a C-section. This is what I am thinking for the outcomes of our July 5th appointment. It could go one of three ways. 

1. I could be completely fine and everything is on the go for a natural delivery!

2. My placenta could still have slightly moved as before (but not enough) and they will schedule another sonogram for 4-6 weeks later, putting me at either 34 weeks or 36 weeks for a sonogram. Then if my placenta is still too close to my cervix a C-section will then be scheduled for either a 36-38 week delivery date, that would put us at either the week of August the 8th (36 weeks/day after our anniversary, GO FIGURE!) or the week of August 22nd (38 weeks).

3. They will automatically, because this is the third sonogram, schedule a C-section at my appointment on July 5th for a delivery date between 34-38 weeks.

WE WILL JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE!

Whatever happens I trust God has everything under control! My fears of having a premature baby do creep up due to the fact that I know what my family had to go through with me being nine weeks premature. I know that Rylan has now been "cooking" for a little longer than what I had been with my mom, but I still have the fear with every knew pain that I'm going to go into labor too soon.... Please continue to pray for us as we get ready for Rylans arrival and as we continue to prepare for the greatest gift God can bestow: Being Parents.

Seventh Baby Appointment

Our baby appointment on June 6th went very well :-D My weight gain is right on track now and the doctor said I am doing tremendously well. The only thing we are still monitoring and they have a concern about is my low lining placenta. I have another sonogram scheduled for June 29th. I pray we get good news, however whatever Gods plan is I am grateful for all He has provided and will continue to provide for us. And of course for this photog the joy of having an album of pictures of little Rylan throughout his beginning months, is the greatest thing! :-D


I am now going to be seeing the doctor every two weeks. WOW I know time is flying by! I can't believe I am now into my third trimester and this Monday, June the 13th, on my 24th birthday I will be 7months along!!! 

I can't wait to hold you Rylan Paul :-D 

~12 Weeks 4 Days till my delivery date!~

BIRTHDAY WISHES TO A FUNNY MONKEY!!!!!

HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE SISTER!!!!!  YOU ROCK MONKEY! I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOOOOVEEE YOUUUU!!!!