That's all I have to say after such a long time away from posting. I have been going non-stop and my tank is (almost) on empty. My body is feeling the pain of the work week while my mind is dealing with all the weeks that are flying by! I am two days shy of entering my 32nd week of pregnancy, 8 months along!!! I KNOW, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! A friend of mine just had her daughter at 35 weeks and boy does that freak me out! I have always thought Rylan was going to show up early and if he's as early as my friends little princess WOW..... is all I have to say :-D I can't wait to meet our son, however the fears of labor and delivery are creeping up on me, and the braxton hicks contractions I've been experiencing off and on for the past two weeks sure are not helping my nerves!
All my doctors visits are scheduled from now until my due date!! And even two weeks after, if Rylan is being stubborn; however the secretary reassured me he will not be late :-D (I'm not sure if she knows that I will be the pregnant lady sitting in the waiting room on September 6th with a scowl and I heavy purse, ready to smack someone upside the head with) I do not think she realizes I will be holding her to her statement, possibly literally! :-)
Before I get into the NEWS of our last baby appointment and sonogram here are some pictures of the nursery! All painted and (almost) ready to go for Mr. Rylan Paul. We still have some decorating to add but as of now we are really, really pleased with the outcome of the paint color and we LOVE our awesome crib that will later change into a toddler bed, day bed, and then full size bed!
Sooo, the news I'm sure you have all been waiting for (jk). We were told my placenta did move away but only slightly as before. SOOOO ANOTHER sonogram was scheduled for 7/26. At the time of my appointment I was seeing the doctor that I'm not very fond of and who when you ask a question treats you as if you are an infant talking. But I tried my best to ask that burning question. "So what happens if it doesn't change at all or enough next sonogram, do we then schedule a C-section"? Now remember I will be 34 weeks along at this point and they probably wont give us our results until the following week which will put me at 35 weeks. Here was the doctors response: "It will definitely change, but I guess if it doesn't change enough like we would like to see we will schedule another sonogram for a couple weeks after (I assume two weeks putting me at 37 weeks) and then if there still isn't much change we will just let you labor naturally and watch for bleeding because that's what we are trying to avoid (she then smiles) and if you do start to bleed or it looks like your going to start we would then do an emergency C-section."
(As I sat there in the white walled doctors office a blank feeling across the board filled my mind, are you feeling it too? Yeah...it was not the "this should make you feel better" explanation I was looking for)
SO, yes that is the most recent news and the not so good outcome AND/OR doctors report on my labor and delivery. I am REALLY not wanting to deal with having to START to bleed and then be rushed for a
C-section. I think it is ridiculous and unsafe and I will try my best if nothing changes in the next couple weeks to really push for scheduling a C-section. Luckily I will not be seeing that doctor for the rest of my pregnancy!!! *THANK YOU JESUS* So I would like to believe the other doctors I will be seeing will have a better response to my situation then to let me get to were its dangerous for my safety to then proceed with a C-section.
Kevin and I are worn out with the go around of what to expect. I have to say my anxiety is starting to get the best of me and I am really getting concerned with the fact that I could go into labor at any minute and with my placenta still to close to my cervix trying to go naturally scares me (A LOT). Lately I have been really worried I am going to go into labor at work! We know God has it all in His plan and is holding us all in His hands, and that is our peace as of now.
In my humanity, my fears of the unknown are the hardest thing to let go of and let God provide. Through this entire pregnancy that is what we have learned the most. We are trusting God has everything under control and Rylan and I will be safe and everything will go as HIS plan, when the time is right...
*Your continued prayers are much needed and appreciated! Thank you so very much!*
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